Creative Rebellion

“All will be well. What do you hope for?
In fearful day, in raging night, with strong hearts full,
our souls ignite, when all seems lost, in the war of light,
look to the stars, for hope burns bright!”

—Blue Lantern (DC Comics)

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I am an over-educated, arrogant, self-righteous Creative, who struggles with a few rare diseases—illnesses that have taken me from a solid career, a bright future, and strong leadership opportunities to not working, serious brain fog, random falling, spending days in bed, and riding a wheelchair instead of my motorcycle… which I had to sell last year. I am angry often and I grieve what I thought would be my life.

Yup. So….

What’s the CREATIVE takeaway here?

First, knowing my shortcomings goes a long way. I am nearing 50-years old and have worked on overcoming and surviving my shortcomings and blind spots for decades. I have always strived to be a better person, because my childhood was dysFUNctional to say the least. Growing up with trauma and struggle is not new, and certainly does not make me special. It just IS, so I can whine about it, or I can work on it.

Second, being a Creative is one of the reasons I have struggled so much. Let me explain.

Creativity is defined by as, “the ability to transcend traditional ideas, rules, patterns, relationships, or the like, and to create meaningful new ideas, forms, methods, interpretations, etc.; originality, progressiveness, or imagination.”

So, as much as creativity has been my go-to tool for problem solving, and for formerly being an effective commercial artist and professor, I have used creativity in an unrighteous manner—particularly with my shortcomings.

Meaning, I am an unholy and unrighteous over-educated, arrogant, self-righteous Creative. AND, I am a holy and righteous over-educated, arrogant, self-righteous Creative. It breaks down a bit like this: My being an academic can be empowering and supportive to others; Arrogance can give me bold confidence to reach out in love; Self-righteousness can stand as noble and God-fearing wisdom.

In other words, I am human (suffering from the human condition), and I can use my superpowers for good or evil.

I can create unrighteous problems that are very complex and literally impossible to solve (Can you say, “drama?”), or I can create life-giving, loving solutions. I can be a blessing or a curse to myself and my community.

Therefore, I will say, “I am an educated, confident, humble Creative.”

Enough tergiversating for me today (See what I did there?).

I’m gonna chill on the couch and binge some Netflix, after I organize my meds for the week, because “All WILL be well!”

Just sharing…

† By God’s Grace.